Comfortable underwear has been my jam since I grew old enough to care. My preferred fabric is cotton, my style, granny. Back when I was nine months pregnant with our first child, I took to wearing my husband's cotton jockey shorts because nothing else fit me.
When Clarence saw me, his face fell, like this.
'You look like a sumu wrestler,' he said. Thanks!" I replied. "So you think I'm the sporty type?" In response, he clapped his hands to his cheeks like McCauley Culkin in Home Alone. I faced him down, hands on hips, my whale sized belly taking over the room. He got over it.
My love affair with comfortable underwear continued. At various times I attempted wearing things like tummy taming silky garments. "They really work for you," my hubby said flirtatiously.
"Are you taming your tummy?" I asked in a voice any sensible man would understand meant, Stop Talking Now." He slunk from the room, never to address the issue again. He'd made the mistake once of confiding in me that all a woman had to do to keep a guy interested was to show up. Ribbons and bows were merely wallpaper. I took him at his word.
But this isn't about that. Aside from my comfort, I have few underwear concerns, and tend to purchase my favorite pairs by the six pack. Sadly, there's always two pairs in gray. Now, I might not be the tummy slimming type, but that doesn't mean I've abandoned all sense of self worth. If these were a light and trendy gray, that would be different. These ones look like they were handed out in a Victorian Orphanage for the Poor. In spite of their comfort, to see them on myself is to be visited with a sense of hopeless despair. So I save them for working around the house or writing all day.
But the biggest reason I don't like wearing them outside is, what if I die? Say I've been hit by a car. (I'm a jaywalker.) Now, let's pretend that for some reason, they had to take off my pants. I picture the ambulance attendant throwing in the towel a tad early. "She's gone," he'd say carelessly.The female attendant would not take this well.
"You think she's not worth saving because of her underwear? We can't let her die like this!' And through her sense of solidarity and genuine understanding of the situation, she'd persist until I coughed myself back into life.
Having written this, I've realized that the sensible thing to do is to package up the gray pairs and leave them at a second hand store. "New," I 'll write in an attached note. "But only for those who've abandoned all hope." On the other hand, maybe some other woman would be a bit more prosaic about the whole thing. Maybe the women wearing fancy, uncomfortable underwear will buy them with a sense of relief.
"And they're so cheap!" they'd say to themselves. And so my poorhouse underwear will become another woman's refuge. At the end of the day, it's just another story in the unfashionable circle of life.
